Senior Emotions

This year has been said to be the best year of high school but in the end, it is seen as a roller coaster of emotions. This year may be the easiest academically but it has drained me and my motivation.
Senior year has been the most stressful year of my academic career. With the built-up stress, the safety of knowing that there isn’t another year after this one is calming. This year is a lot for a student to handle with decisions of what to do after high school and turning into an adult with added responsibilities. From going to college or the military, to deciding when I should move out and how much my future will cost to accomplish everything I want in life, the spiraling thoughts have taken over my priorities.
With many influences and opinions of what to do differently from family and friends, it makes the decision to not disappoint them challenging if I choose what I want to do. From cap and gown, prom and many other senior events, the expenses add up making it expensive just to graduate.
The year can also have its challenges when trying to be a teenager and having many expectations of becoming an adult too soon placed on my shoulders. With all of the pressures looming, I’m caught distancing myself from loved ones as I plot my future. The distance adds additional emotions because this may be the last year I see many friends.
In the middle of the stress, I lean into my mother who helps remind me that this is my path to choose and I’m in control.